Who am i not to trust

"His eyes didn't lie, that smile didn't lie, those lips didn't lie" I don't know why I don't feel he is gone; I still feel he will text me "Hey, I LOVE YOU, HONEY!" just like he used to say. Everyone is saying he is gone, he won't come, he never loved you, he used you, he must have moved on but I feel he loves me even now it has been almost four months since we broke up but a part of him is still in me, the memories he gave me will always and always will be with me, my love for him can never fade away because he is my life not a part of it. HE IS ME. The day I realized that he is the one at that very moment I lost everything and gained everything at the same time. I lost all other attachments and I made him my everything. I dreamt forever with him. He promised me forever but maybe we will get back together someday. He became my world, my breath, my life, my family, and my home.  I texted him 15 days ago, and he blocked me. No matter whatever ...

  Our first conversation, the first time you said "I love you", the first time u looked into my eyes, the first time you held me close to you, the first time your lips were on mine, the first time I laid down on your chest, the first time you played with my hair, the first time you kissed my neck, our first date, our first picture today, the first time we talked on a call... Well, I remember it all too well... I was always scared of his leaving me and I often asked him if he was going to leave me someday...he always said never. He used to say whenever this thought comes I should just remember how much he loves me... I believe him......but maybe after all he forgot me... I see you every day But that's not enough I got this seeker running along a lonely line Always trying to make my keeper mine ~Weyes Blood   It was our second date we were in a restaurant the above song was playing and he couldn't stop vibing on it. It took two days to find this song for our 2nd month...

 "Maybe someone who kisses my eyes a billion times before my lips" Running away from things is very easy deleting everything from your social media which had them, pretending that it never happened, if you think this is moving on it isn't moving on means you are accepting the fact that they are gone from your life and maybe they aren't ever gonna come back and you are going on with your life.  He almost killed me indirectly but, he did.  I messaged him, he got angry i guess, my heart racing my words fumbling. I fainted I was shivering, my body was ice cold as my friend told me. Everyone thought it was an anxiety attack but it was a heart attack on a broken heart. Can someone get so attached to their partner emotionally that just a few words said by them give a heart attack? He came to know I was unwell it didn't even affect him, he didn't even care, he just wanted to get rid of me.  I did love him and I did feel loved by him but I guess it wasn't meant to ...

 "What about when someone doesn't need a shoulder? What if they need the arms?" -Stephen Chbosky It felt right somehow everything about him, just felt it was meant to be. Well, if you have been reading my blogs you are certainly sure of the fact, that I don't have good luck in love, unfortunately, I always thought love is enough but it isn't. I love him more than anything in this universe but that is not enough. I love him but still, I wasn't able to understand him, support him and make him realize that I am always going to be there for him. He met me when I was in pieces, he healed me just within two months, and then he broke me in a way I never thought. Why is it hard to move on? I am scared to move on honestly, because now when I think of the person I loved before him, I have totally forgotten him, the memories with him are faded it just feels like I never loved him, and I am scared to move on because I don't want to forget the guy I...

 Accidently I met him. Honestly, nothing is accidentally it's the universe who is doing this "It is meant to be". I lost my faith in love long back I felt I could never fall in love again but he made me believe in it again.  I started talking to him I wasn't looking for a relationship then but he just felt so right. 1:30 pm it was. I was completely dressed up got a new fit for the occasion I started getting ready 4 hours before I met him. When he was about to come I  was panicking like hell! "Am I  looking good enough?" "Will he like me?" a lot of questions were in my head but the moment I saw him nothing mattered I didn't care how I was looking, what was I wearing, it was perfect because I was with him.  When I am with him I feel loved in a way I have never felt before. The little things he does make me smile like an idiot but, to be honest, I want to be that idiot for all of my life. When I was in love before I thought I will never be able to...

  It's 8 a.m your alarm is ringing, getting late still want to sleep? 1:30 a.m need to wake up early but still can't sleep? Everything in this universe is made up of energies: negativity, positivity, stress, tension, love, hate "everything". Quantum physics states that "One person can be at five different places at the same time"; there are infinite possibilities, in one universe you are living the life you desire, and in the other everything is falling apart. If you want to manifest anything give it out first the happier you are the happier your future, the tenser you are the harder the future. If you love someone feel it like they are loving you back already because if you can't be happy without them, you can't be happy with them. Self-realization is the hardest but the most important one. If you accept this and you try to be the best possible version of yourself you will attract the person you desire. Give out love to them and believe in the unive...