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The need for love

 "Maybe someone who kisses my eyes a billion times before my lips"

Running away from things is very easy deleting everything from your social media which had them, pretending that it never happened, if you think this is moving on it isn't moving on means you are accepting the fact that they are gone from your life and maybe they aren't ever gonna come back and you are going on with your life. 

He almost killed me indirectly but, he did.  I messaged him, he got angry i guess, my heart racing my words fumbling. I fainted I was shivering, my body was ice cold as my friend told me. Everyone thought it was an anxiety attack but it was a heart attack on a broken heart. Can someone get so attached to their partner emotionally that just a few words said by them give a heart attack? He came to know I was unwell it didn't even affect him, he didn't even care, he just wanted to get rid of me. 

I did love him and I did feel loved by him but I guess it wasn't meant to be. I am a very romantic person honestly, I have so much love and affection to give away to someone so desperately that I end up hurting myself sometimes. 

Black eyes, dimple the cutest smile. Am I ready to give my love to someone else so soon?  

Distance affects relationships people say, I don't think it does but no communication surely does. When two people truly love each other nothing in this world will be able to separate them. Relationships come with its own ups and downs you have to find someone with whom the arguments, boring days, and days that you forgive are worth it. Relationships are not meant to be perfect, people aren't meant to be perfect this is what makes it beautiful its imperfections. 

I never leave hope I have fate that one day I will find my Mr.Perfect. With whom everything will make sense, rather than being physical we will spend our nights talking to each other, looking into each other's eyes. When I will hug him all my overthinking, and negative thoughts everything will go away there would just be peace it will finally feel like home. With him I won't have to get ready, I will be my true self, the imperfect me. The crazy me. I want someone who kisses my soul before he kisses me. I want that emotional connect. Maybe it would be someone from my past or someone absolutely new, I will always wait for that day to come...


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