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The lie I didn't believe

"His eyes didn't lie, that smile didn't lie, those lips didn't lie"

I don't know why I don't feel he is gone; I still feel he will text me "Hey, I LOVE YOU, HONEY!" just like he used to say. Everyone is saying he is gone, he won't come, he never loved you, he used you, he must have moved on but I feel he loves me even now it has been almost four months since we broke up but a part of him is still in me, the memories he gave me will always and always will be with me, my love for him can never fade away because he is my life not a part of it. HE IS ME. The day I realized that he is the one at that very moment I lost everything and gained everything at the same time. I lost all other attachments and I made him my everything. I dreamt forever with him. He promised me forever but maybe we will get back together someday. He became my world, my breath, my life, my family, and my home. 

I texted him 15 days ago, and he blocked me. No matter whatever he does or whatsoever people say I know he still loves me. He always loved me more than I loved him, I know he still loves me. He himself is denying the fact but I can feel him. I am positive he is going through a tough time; he has a lot on his plate, he wants to be with me but he is afraid it won't work out.

Maybe I am crazy thinking he still loves me, I believe in the energies, I believe in the universe and to be honest, I am a very spiritual person and I have faith that if he isn't the one, I would have felt it. 

You all may think me to be stupid thinking forever being a teenager but you know when you know.........

Well, all I can do right now is hope......

I dream about him every night, our future together, the plans we made, the promises we made. It just kills me he is not with me right now and FOR ME IT IS HIM OR NO ONE. I never want to kiss someone else; I never want to love someone else; I don't want to click the pictures I clicked with him with someone else.

I have faith in his love, I have faith in us, and he will come back. 

because...

"His eyes didn't lie, that smile didn't lie, those lips didn't lie"

Mote it be...

 

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