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yesterday was forever

 "My eyes left yesterday, my heart felt forever....."

Thinking about it makes me sad, but I still do...Maybe I am happily sad...

He heard my quietness, and he felt my silence...

I wasn't sleeping I was awake I wanted you to wait, I was losing my breath but my mind was still I just needed you to be there..my cry for help everybody heard but maybe your ears were deaf for it... The smile everybody saw but you saw the tears for it...Dissolve me in your soul I will fade, say your name I will chase, give me your hymns I will pray, just make me yours I will stay...I am not me I am the reflection of you in the mirror, the one you admire the most to see..but the mirror just broke did it break you and me? I wish my sore eyes could show my love or my bass voice or the fact that I am still half for the other half...

Sometimes it takes as much as winter to make you cold but what if the blanket of fanciness that used to make me feel warm is making me feel sore..maybe it would take as long as a night to make me cold or as short as a year to make me alive or maybe as long as a lifetime..which was promised but now is words buried behind A wound was to be healed another to be made maybe in between of life I was to be kissed for him to be mine..gave me a home but somehow I felt homeless, is there but I will alone...I might love love but love hates me, I might not be enough but enough for me, I might be insecure but a cure for me, I might love love but love doesn't love me

Your eyes were the first thing I met, I remember that voice that smile that you gave me for the first time, even though we had just met I was memorizing you like my favorite song, I was narrating the incident of meeting you like my favorite plot of the story...the story was started way back but my heart said a replay for you and beginning it all over again..The way your five goes in mine, the way the only thing left of me is you...I remember the first time I saw you, the first time u held my hand, the first time I looked into your eyes and knew as much as I want to rewind them I want to fast forward and see what my eternity looks like with you. Time with you blows like a breeze but I am comforted by the warmth of your heart. Maybe eternity will feel like a long daydream or maybe like a movie that I never want to get over. No matter what the future holds I will always be waiting for you near the steps of the lake waiting for the sunset but my back will face the sun as my sun rises and shines with you 

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