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light in the darkness

U r too fat or U r too thin... the society can never be happy for the way u r especially in India.
I was flabby as a child I was always told how extremely fat I was. Ppl used to tease me a lot for them it was just a joke but for me, it made me want to change myself gradually I became perfect in the societies eyes. Now, as per ppl I am too thin few months back I was perfect according to them.
I have been trolled for my shape since childhood back then I was too fat that clothes won't fit in and now acc to them I am too thin that I look unwell. 
A lot of ppl have started commenting on my shape lately someday they say,"ur ass is too big!" Somedays they say,"u r so flat!!" 
No one has the right to comment on my body or anyone's till the time they know what u r going though. 
Did u suffer from eating disorder since u were 12? Do u suffer from PTSD? Do u suffer from depression? Do u know what real depression is? Were u told since the age of 6 that u won't be alive until we perform multiple surgeries on u from time to time?Did u have a heartattack being a teenager? If u didn't u have no right to comment on the way I am. U can't make me feel ashamed of myself only because u r ashamed of urself. 
A lot of guys in my school have trolled me a lot lately they Don't care about it but for me it has been a hack of a thing. I just want to say don't be proud of ur fake masculinity. Making girls ashamed for how they r or fucking a lot of girls doesn't make u a man but treating her with respect does. CHANGE THE STREOTYPE. 
I am happy the way I am even if I am too fat or too thin. I am perfect the way I am. 
Mostly guys who date me r like "she is a nice girl let's pretend for a few months that I love her and then I will leave her heartbroken that will be fun". 
My grandma explained me what love is. 
She said no relationship is just filled with love every relationship has problems love is when u fight together, u work together for the relationship. Wanting to be with the same person even after fighting is love. Nowadays, mostly ppl think one fight = breakup, they think after a fight nothing is going to be the same but originally after a fight u understand each other better it makes the relationship stronger. This is what my ex did we fought he said,"it's never gonna be the same." I tried but he give up. 
In this game of trying and giving up sometimes u lose the perfect person for u, sometimes only becuz u feel it's weird you lost your dream relationship. 
IT'S NEVER TOO LATE TO FIX THINGS.....

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