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Merry Blue Christmas

 The door was closed, and so was my heart, I tried putting my hand on the handle for him but maybe we drifted apart, At the doorstep of his heart, maybe a knock would bring him alive, or I was just afraid of what I might find...

Emptiness was all I saw. Maybe he had already sown his seeds and gone. In a lucid dream, I saw the bridges of my imagination and reality, where I had to begin my path. I was waiting for his signals to find my path. These nights are without darkness and my days are without pain. Finally, my tears have stopped for me to drain in the rain. I am sinking in the ocean of your tragic darkness, where my life has lost its will to live. These nights are without darkness, my days are without pain, and I am waiting for someone who hasn't changed...

I love you more than the poets love the moon; I love you every day and every night; I love how you make me smile. If I am lost I want u to be my destiny. I love you more than the distance between us and  I  love you more than we fight because in the end darling, it's you and I.

He is a moon lover he loves it even with its spots. I wish he loved me with all my grace, 

When I was drowning in the sea, I kept drowning,

it felt as empty as you...

I will be ur umbrella in the rain,

handkerchief to your tears,

I hope I comfort you the way you comfort me,

till the day I disappear

Merry is Christmas, Merry is the night. Maybe I might be fine when the merry shuts me and marries me mine...

Should I have celebrated Blue Christmas or waited for Merry Christmas? Maybe the blue is not just for Christmas but for the year...maybe I will be able to a merry for the upcoming year... This year has been a roller coaster ride I won't say it was a tragedy but a miraculous one... a year ago I wouldn't have known what my actual potential was maybe the way I was trying to shift my reality.. manifest my present... maybe I get that with 369... We all sacrificed our time and our efforts on something worthless... 

Rather than a year-new resolution, use the Christmas spirit for a miracle. May your day be as merry as Christmas and your year as miraculous as the renders click, because who am I not to trust...

Merry Blue Christmas 


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